Mama Guilt is real

When you get pregnant you’re filled with so many unknowns, excitement, and anticipation of all the things that are about to change in your world 

Months go by with questions about this little being growing inside of you; how you’re handling with being pregnant; and your plans for when the baby is here

When the baby makes their way here there’s a shift 

A shift many don’t talk about yet so many can relate

The shift of losing yourself; imposter syndrome, and the loneliness amidst this grand amount of love

Too scared to talk to anyone about it out of the fear that you’ll be judged or looked at as if you’re not happy with your baby or your life 

The unexplained sadness, the unshakeable doubts 

The thoughts of how life would be if you never had a baby

The days of getting up because you know you can’t call out of this job

There’s no HR to call when you’re feeling overworked and underappreciated 

There’s no mental health days or PTO when all you want to do is sleep and sulk in your head

The struggles of nourishing your own self 

You’re so used to smiling through it all while you’re sinking on the inside 

What keeps you going is this little person looking at you with their beautiful eyes and holding onto you like they’ve never left the womb 

This little piece of light that shines for you hoping it helps you find your way towards joy 

The mom guilt is real; a mind filled with countless questions like; did I do it right, did I say this right, did I love them right, am I enough? Because I don’t feel worthy of you 

Through the tears, through it all the word mamá becomes more normal 

You embrace it, you tread through the dark layers of what felt like you would never get out of 

And even on the days when you still question yourself, you hear that little laugh, those little feet running, those little arms wrapping around your neck embracing you in love and you fall right in because you know that’s where you belong 

I am enough

I am worth and so are you!

You are enough <3